I’m testing the wordpress app for my iphone. Mainly because I haven’t had time to actually write on my lappy in what seems like forever!

There just doesn’t seem to be enough time, lately. I think part of of is this working five days a week business. It’s a real challenge. And really, there’s no end in sight. I work til Friday. Then on Monday I work then fly to Baltimore to work all week there. Then ny, ny by train. Then back to Baltimore. Then LA for a few days. Then drive to the playa, work for two weeks. Then fly out of brc to Denver for another 10 days. I’m booked absolutely solid until mid September!

And there is so much to do! And now. I have just taken on building ART for burning man! What am I thinking? But to be honest, the 8′ Voodoo Man Doll I am building excites the heck out of me! As Scotty and I discovered. The difference between a theme camp and an idea is a sign. We’re going to be camped at 430 and edsell. Exactly where we wanted!

Call me. I’m slammed right now. But call me, I could uses some love. I will warn you. It’s the zero expectations or less time of year. We’ll see what we can make happen!

And it looks like I’ll be able to blog from the playa!

I love Love. It’s a nice idea. It makes the world a better place. All we need is love. Love is a battlefield. Love, Love Love. I could go on for three pages with love song lyrics. I have love all over my life. I have love for my friends, a love so deep and real and committed. I have this amazing love from my family. I love them so much. I have known great love in relationships, each one somehow more fulfilling without lessening the love that came before.

I am blessed. For me it is a charmed life.

It is easy for me to see love as this infinite well, a source that cannot run out. Paradoxically, the more one gives of it’s contents, the more of the stuff keeps bubbling up exponentially proportionate to what is given. The real trick is to keep the perpetual motion machine going. It requires maintenance and trust and belief. But, for me, it works.

But I am finding myself in this space I haven’t known for a while. I am open to falling in love (Of course, I blog, so this is a very public openness. Which is confronting). Like romantic, head over heels, crazy about you, flowers and candles, holding hands, kissing for hours kind of falling in love. It’s interesting, because for the first time in years, I am finding myself going down that wildflower lined path, visualizing this beautiful future of love. Fun and terrifying. If you ever wanted to pounce on me… Now would be the time.

It is this fine line, too. On one hand, I want to be open to whatever loving possibilities are there for me, trusting the world to deliver a woman of such caliber as to truly knock my socks off. That kind of trust requires this vulnerability to emotion that scares my tender little inner teenager. So, on the other hand, I have this very real measure by which I am looking for this woman, which requires a certain level of detachment. I made this list, of an ideal partner for me. Sometimes, I see it as too specific.

Specificity versus Openness. It’s a balancing act.

Life is what happens when we are busy making other plans. Because as soon as I really started speaking of this openness, I find myself happily confronted with choices. It seems like more are just flooding to me. I am getting this great experience of being the one who gets to choose. Of course, I keep with the romantic fantasies, they keep it entertaining. I think the trick is to have a fantastic imagination and absolutely no attachment to an outcome. A good magician is at the same time utterly gullible and shrewdly skeptical.

And there is no big hurry. There is time enough for love. Wow, as much as that is my favorite saying, it is really easy to forget. I forgot it until I just typed it. Falling in love is fun, but there is no need to rush it. I need to tattoo that on my forearm.

Yeah, that pretty much sums up the last few days. I’ve gotten a surprising number of jealous messages from our friends who wish that they were granted an opportunity to spend some serious hang-time with the ever-busy and often-scintillating Karen Jacobs!

I kid.

She’s pretty much always awesome.

(we’ve been friends for a while)

But it has brought to my attention the very limited time we seem to have with our friends to do nothing with one another. There always seems to be some event, or chore, or errand, or… thing to do that keeps is from spending time merely reconnecting. And unfortunately, there really is no answer for this. We have these full lives, and they just aren’t getting any less packed.

It’s almost like you need some excuse, some quest, to really get you out of your life to just hang out. I love a road trip. There’s nothing like a long drive to get all deeply related. Even a drive across town to check out some new point of interest will suffice.

We just gotta make more time. We gotta schedule it. And reschedule it when the plans fall through, and follow through… And we kind of have to be a little bit lucky.

I feel seriously refreshed after this trip (and KJ is driving on the way back). And I am ready to start looking for the next adventure. I have some openings, make some suggestions.

Yeah, that pretty much sums up the last few days. I’ve gotten a surprising number of jealous messages from our friends who wish that they were granted an opportunity to spend some serious hang-time with the ever-busy and often-scintillating Karen Jacobs!

I kid.

She’s pretty much always awesome.

(we’ve been friends for a while)

But it has brought to my attention the very limited time we seem to have with our friends to do nothing with one another. There always seems to be some event, or chore, or errand, or… thing to do that keeps is from spending time merely reconnecting. And unfortunately, there really is no answer for this. We have these full lives, and they just aren’t getting any less packed.

It’s almost like you need some excuse, some quest, to really get you out of your life to just hang out. I love a road trip. There’s nothing like a long drive to get all deeply related. Even a drive across town to check out some new point of interest will suffice.

We just gotta make more time. We gotta schedule it. And reschedule it when the plans fall through, and follow through… And we kind of have to be a little bit lucky.

I feel seriously refreshed after this trip (and KJ is driving on the way back). And I am ready to start looking for the next adventure. I have some openings, make some suggestions.